Sigh of Relief

Well, today was my first day of a work in PA. I have had my own business now for over 4 years and it isn't easy going back to work for someone else. It's not as creative and not as fulfilling. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt what the call on my life is, so to take a job, even for a season is a struggle because I have such a burning desire over my life's work and moving forward in the direction of my dreams. I believe, however, there are times in our lives that in order to move forward, we must take those few steps back.

Re-evaluate.

Re-conceive.

Re-launch.

Rise again - renewed.

In my new temporary scientist role in big Pharma, I am semi-incognito. The management knows my capabilities for this job, but most of the staff do not. Those who do have asked me why, if I am so overqualified, do I want the job. The answer was sincere: We need the money and it's temporary.

Today was hard with the stress and anticipation of my first day in Corporate Northeast America. It's a white nuckled, high stress cold world. And, of all therapy areas I could be working on, I am working in neurosciences and specifically in depression. I was telling my friend Virginia tonight that I don't want the negativity that surrounded me today to bring me down. She said something to the effect, "We'll, you just be the one to help bring them up." Her wisdom was spot on. Nelson Mandela quoted Marianne Williamson in his presidential inauguration speech stating: "Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to manifest the glory of God within us." Ghandi said, "Be the change you want to see in the world." And God confirms this saying, Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven. (Mt 5:16)

I will be myself. I will do a great job for the company who pays me. I will not lament for times past (Egypt), but look forward with hope and anticipation to times of restoration (Canaan and freedom from bondage). This job and the money it brings is a blessing in a time of serious financial economic instability in our nation. My husband and I are, thank God, now both gainfully employed and will come out of hard times. We will see the goodness of the Lord in the Land of the living. We are just starting to reap the harvest of seeds planted in faith a long time ago. I just know the Autumn season we are moving into is going to be pregnant with surprises and I anticipate each one. In the meantime, I will just let this little light of mine shine and focus on the mere success of holding a job as I work on rebuilding my coaching practice after our move.

Dr. William Menninger said there are, "Six essential qualities that are the key to success:
sincerity, personal integrity, humility, courtesy, wisdom, charity."

I agree. So did Jesus when he spoke his Sermon on the mount:

Sincerity (the pure of heart), personal integrity (the hungry - those who hunger and thirst after righteousness), humility (meek, poor in spirit), courtesy (peacemakers), wisdom (those persecuted for following the Son of Man), charity (the merciful).

Well hats off to you, Dr M. It's not easy working with cutting edge depression treatments and still maintain the spine of a life coach and the soul of a believer.

I feel that right now God is giving me such experiences and extremes to test my gird in all situations.
I will pass because I love Him.
And I thank God today for the sigh of relief that I can breathe over our finances today.

Maybe my post is not making a lot of sense today. I just know that if you are not doing what you want to do. Just keep dreaming. Keep praying . The vision God gives you for your future is real and can not be taken away from you. There may be hard times. And detours. But always there is learning and growth. And God is always there with us. His rod and his staff they comfort and guide us.

Keep following your dreams through that sometimes long and winding road... don't let the fire go out. Crock pots take a while, but eventually everything gets cooked...

love to all, Anne

But he who practices truth [who does what is right] comes out into the Light; so that his works may be plainly shown to be what they are--wrought with God [divinely prompted, done with God's help, in dependence upon Him]. John 3:21